By Rhonda Varley
This is a crazy time we are living in. Lockdown is strange and surreal. There is a lot of tension, anxiety, fear and uncertainty with many of us wondering if life will ever be the same again. Yet… even in this God is working. God is Good.
I contracted Covid-19 and as an asthma and Lupus sufferer I knew I was going to struggle. The first two days seemed much like any other bad flu, but by the third evening I was gasping for air, suffering frequent coughing fits, and my temperature soared. I was scared. On the fourth night at 4 am it was touch and go as to whether we dialled 999. I felt as though I was suffocating and as I sat up in bed, I actually began contemplating what would happen if I wasn’t here. What would happen to my family, how would they cope? All the milestones I would never see flooded through my mind.
As I sat, I prayed, and I felt a peace indescribable. A securing warmth as if someone had wrapped a blanket around my shoulders and was holding me up. All the fear, anxiety and uncertainty melted away. A still voice spoke comfort to me as I slowly drifted off to sleep.
When I woke later that day although still struggling with the symptoms, I knew I would be ok no matter what happened. I had an assurance, a deep knowing. And all the little things that seemed so important before last night suddenly seemed so trivial. I had a new sense of perspective. I felt a weight had lifted. I had a Scripture rolling over and over in my head, Matthew 11:29-30 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” I had been striving and putting so much on myself over the last few months. I was stressed all the time, unable to switch off, I had lost sight of what was most important and precious in my life. Now it was so clear, and I feel lighter and freer.