Living With an Eating Disorder

Hey beautiful people! I’ve decided to come back to this writing Melarchy after a long hard brain frazzle and this topic couldn’t be any closer to my, and im sure many others of you’s heart.

I try to just smile and laugh it off when someone tells me to “just cheer up, to “just stop worrying, “just eat” “others have it worse than you ect, but in reality, i want to throw wet sponges in their faces and pretend i’m at a summer fete’. Is that going to get me anywhere?No probably not… But hey! It’s fun i guess.

Mental Illnesses, eating disorders such as Anorexia or bulimia, lets say, are so incredibly stigmatised nowadays that it is honestly breaks my heart. Along with the stigma, which is now rapidly rising, peoples misconceptions of the fear, the hurt, the pressure and the strive that suffers endure in their day to day lives.

Below are a list; Compiled by me and some lovely fighters over on my social media, of what we  believe it would be helpful if you knew. If you have ever believed or still believe any of these myths and comments, please DON’T BEAT YOURSELF UP OVER IT! We are all human and we aren’t perfect. This post is purely to raise awareness and is not aimed at anyone in particular. Names of people will not be given and everyone will remain Anonymous for the sake of privacy.

“My Eating Disorder is not for attention. It is not something i have chosen to do to myself. I would not wish Anorexia on anyone, not even my worst enemy.”

“I don’t just want to be thinner, I never wanted to be Thin. It is not about being thin at all. Losing weight was my coping mechanism and i used it when i felt like everything else was spiralling out of control.”

“Eating disorders do not make us vain. It’s not just about loving ourselves a bit too much. I developed such a dislike to my body and feared that it was constantly changing. Mirrors were my safety net to fall back on if everything got too much.”

“An eating disorder is a Mental Illness with some physical side affects not a physical illness with mental side effects. I will not always look like i’m struggling, but it doesn’t mean I’m not.”

“I wish people knew that eating disorders don’t care who you are. They do not discriminate against anyone, unlike Donald Trump….”

“My Eating Disorder will not just go away overnight, everyday, I wake Up, and I have to continue to fight, again, and again.”

I wish you knew how terrifying it is to have a disorder that centres around the very substance that keeps you alive and the substance that you need to live and exist in this world as a platonic soul. It is devastating.”

“Eating disorders do not only affect us at the table. They take over your entire life. It messes up how you see nearly everything. Even your Existence.”

” From day to day, we can go from 0-100000 in 5 seconds. One minute i can be watching Matt Perry and Jennifer Aniston arguing over a game of poker and 5 seconds later, i’m panicking over tomatoes and water. It is absolutely exhausting”

Honey, i’m so glad you took time out of your day to read this blog as it means so much to me and so many others. If you or someone you know is affected by anything mentioned above, please reach out to someone. it gets better. It Does. I promise.

BIG LOVE, 

C x

One Reply to “Living With an Eating Disorder”

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: