Overcome Your Insecurities|Hannah Crytzer

Hello!!! My​ ​name​ ​is​ ​Hannah,​ ​and​ ​I’m​ ​insecure.​ ​

Wow,​ ​great​ ​introduction.​ ​I​ ​know.​ ​

For​ ​years​ ​I have​ ​struggled​ ​with​ ​insecurity.​ ​Why​ ​do​ ​I​ ​have​ ​acne?​ ​Why​ ​is​ ​it​ ​that​ ​every​ ​time​ ​I​ ​visit​ ​the​ ​doctors they​ ​say​ ​I’m​ ​overweight?​ ​Why​ ​do​ ​my​ ​makeup​ ​skills​ ​SUCK? It’s​ ​like​ ​I’m​ ​in​ ​this​ ​constant​ ​spiral​ ​of​ ​doubt​ ​and​ ​pity.​ ​There’s​ ​always​ ​that​ ​one​ ​friend​ ​who​ ​tells​ ​you to​ ​be​ ​optimistic,​ ​but​ ​sometimes​ ​that’s​ ​the​ ​last​ ​thing​ ​you​ ​want​ ​to​ ​be. I​ ​remember​ ​growing​ ​up,​ ​and​ ​just​ ​because​ ​I​ ​had​ ​shorter​ ​hair​ ​than​ ​the​ ​other​ ​girls,​ ​they​ ​would​ ​say​ ​I looked​ ​like​ ​a​ ​boy.​ ​Believe​ ​it​ ​or​ ​not,​ ​adults​ ​even​ ​told​ ​me​ ​that.​ ​STRAIGHT​ ​TO​ ​MY​ ​FACE.​ ​I wished​ ​I​ ​could’ve​ ​just​ ​been​ ​like​ ​the​ ​other​ ​girls.​ ​Perfect​ ​skin,​ ​perfect​ ​hair,​ ​perfect​ ​face,​ ​perfect waist,​ ​just​ ​perfect. I​ ​tell​ ​you​ ​this​ ​because​ ​I​ ​know​ ​how​ ​it​ ​feels.​ ​Yeah,​ ​I’ve​ ​been​ ​there.​ ​Exactly​ ​where​ ​you​ ​might​ ​be, right​ ​now. I​ ​didn’t​ ​think​ ​it​ ​was​ ​possible​ ​to​ ​be​ ​set​ ​free​ ​from​ ​all​ ​that​ ​insecurity.​ ​All​ ​I​ ​knew​ ​is​ ​that​ ​it​ ​was​ ​there, it​ ​was​ ​real,​ ​and​ ​it​ ​truly​ ​was​ ​painful. SO.​ ​How​ ​did​ ​I​ ​become​ ​free?​ ​Let​ ​me​ ​give​ ​you​ ​four​ ​things​ ​that​ ​I​ ​did​ ​to​ ​embrace​ ​and​ ​see​ ​my​ ​true beauty.

Jesus.​ ​Yes,​ ​this​ ​man​ ​who​ ​died​ ​on​ ​the​ ​cross​ ​for​ ​me​ ​opened​ ​my​ ​eyes​ ​to​ ​the​ ​scriptures.​ ​I​ ​remember the​ ​first​ ​time​ ​I​ ​read​ ​the​ ​scripture​ ​from​ ​Psalm​ ​139:14,​ ​it​ ​says: “You​ ​are​ ​fearfully​ ​and​ ​wonderfully​ ​made.”​ ​SO​ ​WAIT.​ ​That​ ​means​ ​Jesus​ ​says​ ​that​ ​I​ ​AM fearfully​ ​and​ ​wonderfully​ ​made.​ ​The​ ​creator​ ​of​ ​the​ ​universe​ ​calls​ ​me​ ​wonderful?​ ​He​ ​says​ ​that​ ​I am​ ​made​ ​in​ ​his​ ​image.​ ​OH​ ​Lord​ ​Jesus,​ ​You​ ​are​ ​freaking​ ​amazing.​ ​If​ ​you​ ​are​ ​a​ ​follower​ ​of​ ​Jesus, even​ ​if​ ​you​ ​aren’t,​ ​let​ ​me​ ​tell​ ​you​ ​a​ ​secret.​ ​Are​ ​you​ ​ready?​ ​Jesus​ ​doesn’t​ ​make​ ​mistakes. WOWOWOWOOW.​ ​I​ ​can’t​ ​even​ ​begin​ ​to​ ​comprehend​ ​that.​ ​I​ ​am​ ​so​ ​loved.​ ​YOU​ ​are​ ​so​ ​loved. Sometimes​ ​it’s​ ​hard​ ​to​ ​love​ ​yourself.​ ​BELIEVE​ ​ME,​ ​but​ ​Jesus​ ​is​ ​perfect.​ ​He​ ​created​ ​you​ ​and​ ​I for​ ​a​ ​purpose.​ ​Our​ ​insecurities​ ​cannot​ ​get​ ​in​ ​the​ ​way​ ​of​ ​our​ ​relationship​ ​with​ ​God.​ ​As​ ​you​ ​grow in​ ​your​ ​relationship​ ​with​ ​him,​ ​daily​ ​he​ ​will​ ​show​ ​you​ ​something​ ​new.

Yes,​ ​people.​ ​I​ ​totally​ ​get​ ​that​ ​you​ ​might​ ​be​ ​feeling​ ​uncertain​ ​with​ ​this​ ​point.​ ​People​ ​can​ ​actually be​ ​super​ ​toxic​ ​if​ ​you’re​ ​not​ ​careful,​ ​BUT​ ​I​ ​am​ ​talking​ ​about​ ​the​ ​kind​ ​of​ ​people​ ​you​ ​associate yourself​ ​with.​ ​Your​ ​friends,​ ​family,​ ​etc.​ ​While​ ​I​ ​was​ ​going​ ​through​ ​this​ ​time​ ​of​ ​insecurity​ ​in​ ​my life​ ​where​ ​it​ ​seemed​ ​to​ ​govern​ ​my​ ​life,​ ​I​ ​deleted​ ​my​ ​social​ ​media.​ ​Yes,​ ​I​ ​went​ ​that​ ​far.​ ​I remember​ ​scrolling​ ​seeing​ ​all​ ​these​ ​beautiful​ ​Instagram​ ​feeds.​ ​All​ ​of​ ​the​ ​owners​ ​of​ ​them​ ​were gorgeous,​ ​had​ ​a​ ​boyfriend,​ ​had​ ​the​ ​perfect​ ​body,​ ​and​ ​they​ ​all​ ​just​ ​seemed​ ​to​ ​have​ ​a​ ​perfect​ ​life. Which​ ​of​ ​course​ ​was​ ​a​ ​lie.​ ​I​ ​then​ ​surrounded​ ​myself​ ​with​ ​the​ ​friends​ ​I​ ​pushed​ ​away​ ​because​ ​I
had​ ​a​ ​jealousy​ ​problem.​ ​I​ ​was​ ​jealous​ ​of​ ​the​ ​people​ ​closest​ ​to​ ​me​ ​because​ ​their​ ​purposes​ ​were just​ ​unraveling​ ​right​ ​before​ ​their​ ​eyes.​ ​My​ ​purpose​ ​seemed​ ​hidden​ ​away.​ ​LIKE​ ​WHERE​ ​THE HECK​ ​YOU​ ​AT?​ ​When​ ​you​ ​admit​ ​the​ ​things​ ​that​ ​you’ve​ ​done​ ​that​ ​have​ ​been​ ​harmful​ ​to yourself,​ ​the​ ​burden​ ​is​ ​lifted.​ ​I​ ​began​ ​to​ ​refill​ ​my​ ​life​ ​with​ ​my​ ​friends​ ​I​ ​had​ ​pushed​ ​away​ ​because of​ ​jealousy.​ ​As​ ​they​ ​came​ ​back​ ​into​ ​my​ ​life,​ ​the​ ​encouragement​ ​and​ ​advice​ ​that​ ​I​ ​had​ ​began receiving​ ​uplifted​ ​my​ ​soul​ ​on​ ​so​ ​many​ ​levels.​ ​I​ ​then​ ​thanked​ ​God​ ​for​ ​the​ ​people​ ​that​ ​he​ ​had​ ​put in​ ​my​ ​life​ ​for​ ​a​ ​purpose.​ ​People​ ​help.
Believe​ ​it​ ​or​ ​not,​ ​music​ ​has​ ​helped​ ​me​ ​in​ ​so​ ​many​ ​ways.​ ​These​ ​days,​ ​there​ ​is​ ​music​ ​for everything.​ ​Worship​ ​music.​ ​Not​ ​only​ ​did​ ​reading​ ​scripture​ ​put​ ​the​ ​right​ ​things​ ​in​ ​my​ ​mind,​ ​but worship​ ​did.​ ​Through​ ​my​ ​worship​ ​Satan​ ​stayed​ ​away.​ ​It’s​ ​like​ ​music​ ​is​ ​how​ ​I​ ​cope.​ ​His​ ​word​ ​in song​ ​made​ ​me​ ​feel​ ​powerful.​ ​I​ ​had​ ​control​ ​of​ ​the​ ​enemy.​ ​Even​ ​when​ ​that​ ​little​ ​thought​ ​“your ugly”​ ​came​ ​into​ ​mind,​ ​I​ ​could​ ​immediately​ ​shut​ ​it​ ​down​ ​with​ ​my​ ​voice.​ ​Find​ ​a​ ​song​ ​for​ ​your season. EHEEEMMMM.​ ​Check​ ​out​ ​my​ ​spotify​ ​(Hannah​ ​Crytzer)​ ​to​ ​check​ ​out​ ​some​ ​amazing​ ​fantastic playlists.

Sometimes​ ​you​ ​just​ ​need​ ​to​ ​look​ ​at​ ​yourself​ ​in​ ​the​ ​mirror​ ​and​ ​say​ ​that​ ​you​ ​are​ ​beautiful.​ ​Say​ ​that you​ ​can​ ​do​ ​whatever​ ​you​ ​put​ ​your​ ​mind​ ​to.​ ​Build​ ​yourself​ ​up.​ ​Yes,​ ​it​ ​kinda​ ​sounds​ ​weird​ ​at​ ​first. Someone​ ​could​ ​totally​ ​walk​ ​by,​ ​see​ ​you​ ​staring​ ​at​ ​yourself​ ​in​ ​the​ ​mirror​ ​and​ ​pause.​ ​BUT​ ​WHO CARES.​ ​You​ ​are​ ​doing​ ​this​ ​for​ ​your​ ​benefit.​ ​Not​ ​anyone​ ​else’s.​ ​You​ ​are​ ​valuable,​ ​and sometimes​ ​you​ ​need​ ​to​ ​remind​ ​yourself.​ ​It​ ​took​ ​me​ ​a​ ​long​ ​time​ ​to​ ​understand​ ​the​ ​importance​ ​of affirmations,​ ​but​ ​once​ ​I​ ​started​ ​doing​ ​it​ ​THINGS​ ​GOT​ ​REAL.​ ​It​ ​helped​ ​me​ ​so​ ​much.

Loving​ ​yourself​ ​is​ ​hard,​ ​but​ ​guess​ ​what?​

​You​ ​can​ ​overcome​ ​your​ ​insecurities.​ ​I​ ​believe​ ​in​ ​you. You​ ​can​ ​do​ ​it.

I​ ​love​ ​all​ ​of​ ​you

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